please do not leave before nominating someone for the 'brillante weblog' award! THANKS! read more about it here. you may nominate any blog that inspires you, and you may nominate more than one.
please do not leave before nominating someone for the 'brillante weblog' award! THANKS! read more about it here. you may nominate any blog that inspires you, and you may nominate more than one.
human beings were designed with this 'it cannot happen to me' shield. you know, when you hear of other's misfortune, you sympathize deeply, but somewhere deep inside your subconscious you believe that 'it cannot happen to me'.
we need this feeling. it is our built-in shield. without it, we would go mad. can you imagine what our lives would be like if we did not have this mechanism. it is what keeps us sane. (well, kinda).
when something does happen to us, me, however, then i lose that feeling. that is why a relatively small break-in or a robbery or an accident can be so traumatic. it is not the physical stuff that i lose. it is that shield, that comfort that i lose. now, i will never be able to tell myself that 'it cannot happen to me', because it did! this leaves me vulnerable, raw and exposed to the worry that constantly nags, that little voice that keeps whispering 'it can happen to me. it did happen to me. now, what if it happens again...'
i am not a worrier by nature. i do not live in fear as many south africans do. i am careful and responsible, but i do not constantly fret about an attack, or robbery or hijack. i am surprised every time people ask me if i am not afraid alone in my shop. and believe me, i get asked this almost every day. people ask me if i am not afraid driving home at night after dark, especially on a thursday evening when we leave the shop after a workshop at after 11pm. i suppose that if i asked those people, it would come out that they have experienced a robbery or hijack themselves.
ronnie's mother is terrified of snakes. i know a lot of people are, but she is worse. she would never walk in nature or relax in a game park or on a farm, as she is constantly worries about snakes. she talks about it all the time. but, she was bitten by a snake as a child, and almost died as a result.
i was reading a novel by jonathan kellerman a week or so ago, and in it he described it so well. i cannot find the passage to quote it verbatim, but it talked about the thin, cold snake of fear that had been slithering inside his stomach for a while. and then, in the story, the thin snake suddenly rears it's head and bares it's fangs and hisses in his face. what a chillingly accurate description! do you know what he means? have you felt that thin, cold snake in your belly too? tell me, i'd like to know.
it happened to me that my husband died. in a plane crash. one normal, sunny friday morning in april 2002. just like that, it happened to me. and on that day i didn't just lose a husband, but i also lost my shield.
if the man is just a little later in coming home than expected, then the reasonable, unruffled, non-worrier in me becomes frantic. suddenly, i am filled with fear. the voices inside me start whispering. they say 'it can happen to me. it did happen to me. what if it happens to me again...'.
last week the man was in hospital for a few hours for some tests. and we had to wait a few days for the results. in this time, no matter how hard i tried to ignore it, that thin, cold snake slithered around in my belly. those voices whispered 'it can happen to me. it has happened to me. what if it happens to me again...'normally i refuse to worry about the worst, as i reason that if the worst happens there is plenty of time to worry then, and if the worst doesn't happen, i have wasted a lot of time and energy worrying unnecessarily. but this last week, i constantly felt that snake. and every time i did, i prayed to GOD to let this cup pass the man, and me, and to take those awful thoughts away.
thankfully i can say that HE has been true, and that the diagnosis of ulcerative colitis, although uncomfortable, is treatable and not too serious. this time i beat that snake. and i thank GOD for this. and next time i feel him slithering in my belly, i will tell him again how powerful my GOD is. and if the worst were to come to pass, than i know that GOD will be there for me, as HE always is. and while i know my psycologial shield will probably always fail me, GOD will shield me, better than i ever can.
francois sometimes takes my camera, and snaps away, and when he is finished he puts my camera back. then, when i download my photos i find lots of surprise photos. he took these photos on his birthday of my siblings' kids.
the two guys in this photo are eduard - my brother andre's son, and tian - my sister paula's son. how's this for cooperation...
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
that's my story, and i'm stickin to it!
i have so much to say today:
jowilna from imagine magazine emailed me the following. i thought it was beautiful:
The Concert
When the house lights dimmed and the concert was about to begin, the mother returned to her seat and discovered that the child was missing. Suddenly, the curtains parted and spotlights focused on the impressive Steinway on stage. To her horror, the mother saw her little boy sitting at the keyboard, innocently picking out 'Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star.' At that moment, the great piano master made his entrance, quickly moved to the piano, and whispered in the boy's ear, 'Don't quit . . . keep playing.' Then, leaning over , Paderewski reached down with his left hand and began filling in a bass part. Soon his right arm reached around to the other side of the child, and he added a running obbligato. Together, the old master and the young novice transformed what could have been a frightening situation into a wonderfully creative experience. The audience was so mesmerized that they couldn't recall what else the great master played. Only the classic, 'Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star.'
Perhaps that's the way it is with God. What we can accomplish on our own is hardly noteworthy. We try our best, but the results aren't always graceful flowing music. However, with the hand of the Master, our life's work can truly be beautiful. The next time you set out to accomplish great feats, listen carefully. You may hear the voice of the Master, whispering in your ear, 'Don't quit . . . Keep playing.' May you feel His arms around you and know that His hands are there, helping you turn your feeble attempts into true masterpieces. Remember, God doesn't seem to call the equipped, rather, He equips the 'called.' Life is more accurately measured by the lives you touch than by the things you acquire. May God bless you and be with you always! and remember,
<> 'Don't quit . . . Keep playing.' <>
love, jacki
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
this is francois. he is 22 years old today. he is my pride and joy. happy birthday, son! i hope you have a great day, and a blessed year.
i found this blog of a girl called beverley, and she is turning 40 in 40 days time. to celebrate, she is having 40 days of competitions on her blog. a looong blog party. sounds like fun! she is promising prizes, challenges and fun. and even if you don't get red colddrink and pink cupcakes, following the links to all the blogs that are participating, from all over the world, makes the visit totally worthwhile... go check it out!
love, jacki
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
i had a makeover! do you like my new look? i wish i could custom-make my own banner - i would use my newly aquired digital scrapbooking skills, as i have been practising on the banners i made for the statistics and highlights and tutorials posts. and i would make a new look every month or so. but the difference in price for the blog package that allows me to do that is quite big, and the rand/dollar exchange rate is very steep! this little blog does not make any money, so it will just have to wait... in the meantime, i will look out for nice new blog templates to use.
of course, if you have been thinking of setting up a blog, and don't have time to learn everything that i already know, i could help you by setting up your blog for you, for a fee. then i could use that to upgrade to the better package. you don't need to be near me, you could be on the other side of the world, it can all be done by email. is that a good idea?
i saw this free kit somewhere last week, and then couldn't remember where. fortunately, annette featured it on her blog. thanks for the reminder, doll!
you can find this gorgeous free 'wonderful' digital kit on creating keepsakes site.
it is really worth downloading. you will see many of it's elements popping up on my blog soon!
a previous free kit from michelle, 'renewal', is still one of my favourites. i found it on shutterfly, along with many other digital freebies.
for those of you who were asking about the man, who was in hospital for a few hours for some tests earlier this week. the doctor says he has ulcerative colitis, an inflammation of the intestine. we are thankful to GOD that it is a treatable condition, and not something more serious. he is fine.
some days i cannot think of anything to write on this blog. i open it, check my stats, read comments, then open the 'compose new post' screen and stare at it blankly, waiting for inspiration that does not come. the little voices in my head (yeah, those..) tell me that nobody cares about what i have to say, and what is so interesting about my little life anyway? i had that last week. then, this week, i have so much to say. i have about 4/5 posts ready to upload, in addition to the ones i have posted already. i have been busy! making the summary of this blog for the statistics and highlights post was good for me, it really reminded me of how far i have come, and how much i have learned. i guess it is like scrapbooking, sometimes you just cannot seem to be able to do anything, and other times you produce those masterpieces like you are a factory worker. don't you just love it when that layout almost scraps itself? well sometimes this blog almost writes itself too, and that feels sooo good!
anyway, i feel another post coming up, but that one you will only see next week. and rene, um, i am getting tired of staring at your deserted little corner of the www. how about a little update? i miss you girl, and come over to visit you, and you not there...
love, jacki
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
janine used to attend our wednesday morning workshops. then she moved to seattle, USA, in january 2008. she is here for a week long visit, and came to present the workshop this wednesday morning.
we made this very nice book/folder. here is mine. remember that it has no photos yet. i have edited and saved the photos, and will print them and add them soon.
thanks janine! i had a great time, and i love my little book! please visit again soon!
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
this post is to keep record of all sorts of blog statistics and highlights. it is easy for me to find them if i keep them all in one place. it is to remind me of how far i have come, and where i'm going. i will be adding to this post as new statistics become available.
it is also to thank all of you who read this blog, for your inspiration, and patience, and persistence, and friendship, and your comments. so many suckers for punishment in one place...
14 september 2007 - first post ever
18 september 2007 - my first comment, and from wilna furstenburg, no less!
september 2007 - sitemeter records 72 hits
17 october 2008 - donna downey leaves a comment on this post
october 2007 - sitemeter records 186 hits
november 2007 - sitemeter records 214 hits
december 2007 - sitemeter records 107 hits
january 2008 - sitemeter records 24 hits
february 2008 - sitemeter records 72 hits
13 march - my 6 month blog anniversary, and a look back
13 march 2008 - launch neocounter on my blog, starts with 0 visitors from 0 countries. neocounter only counts the first time a person visits the blog, return visits are not included. (hence 'neo'counter)
21 march 2008 - scrapscene features my post about the easter egg hunt
21 march 2008 - most hits on one day - 103 hits
march 2008 - sitemeter records 667 hits
12 april 2008 - scrapscene features my post about theresa mariuzzi's travel mini-book
12 april 2008 - neocounter records 540 visitors from 23 countries
13 april 2008 - most hits on one day - 183 hits. followed by 166 hits on 14 april.
13 april 2008 - scrapscene features my post on making a shakerbox and my inking tutorial
april 2008 - sitemeter records 967 hits
4 may 2008 - scrapscene features my post on how to edit photos without photoshop
24 may 2008 - scrapscene features my post on how to download and use a frame with photoshop
may 2008 - sitemeter records 739 hits
13 june 2008 - photoshop-pack features my posts how to download and use a frame with photoshop, and how to create a softened photo in photoshop
19 june 2008 - technorati gives my blog an authority of 7, ranking it 797 172. not very high, i know!
19 june 2008 - 133 posts and 179 comments
19 june 2008 - the post with the most comments is wow, what an honor! 7 comments
20 june 2008 - neocounter records 2357 visitors from 60 countries. i cannot even name 60 countries...
22 june 2008 - scrapscene features my post on how to create a softened photo in photoshop
24 june 2008 - kwebbel from germany awarded me a brillante webblog award
28 june 2008 - no 301 of the top 500 blogs on amatomu, a south african blog directory. i have been lower (higher? better!), but this site keeps no records of this, which shows how keeping record here makes sense
june 2008 - sitemeter records 861 hits
1 july - francois's birthday
2 july - sean's birthday
3 july 2008 - sitemeter passes 4000 hits since the beginning of this blog!
24 july 2008? - typepad features my blog on their 'featured blogs'list on their home page. supposedly it is their second featured blog from south africa, and the second scrapbooking blog, after donna downey was featured here
what i used for the banner: paper: greek manuscript, grunge frame from jessica sprague, stitches from anna aspnes 'something springy' from shutterfly, flower and tag label from shappy princess promise collection.
i got this award from kwebbel in gemany. thanks kwebbel! it is an honor! i visit your blog often, and it is about time i placed a link to you on my blog...
Who gets the award "Brillante Webblog" ?
Websites and blogs, which by their actuality, the issues of choice and for their designs are especially noteworthy.
Here are the award rules:
The winner can take the logo.
Link to the site that gave you the award.
Link to at least 7 blogs and give them the award. (Best blog in design, content and timeliness)
Write a comment on their blogs - 'You have won an award on my blog'
i thought i would do it a little different - i want you to help me choose. so, please leave a comment telling me who's blog you nominate. i will give you till end of june. then i will edit this post, and make a list of the 7 blogs we give this award to.
time and about magazine is hosting a few events. scrapbooking train trips and a roadshow. look here for more info.
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
the man smokes. and although he is generally a very kind, caring and considerate person in almost every aspect of life, he is rather a selfish smoker.
he smokes in the car. i don't care what he does in his car, but he smokes in my car too, and when the car stands closed in the sun for a few hours, the smoke smell gives me a headache. we have to eat in smoking sections of restaurants. i am an adult, and make an informed choice, but when 11-year old sean goes along, i have to agree to go to mike's kitchen, the man's favourite but not really mine, because the smoking area is well ventilated, and sean spends almost all the time in the kid's play area anyway. he refuses to go to the movies, because he can't smoke, and he hates going out to supper with family or friends, because then we have to sit in the non-smoking section. he also smokes in our bed at night.
sunday morning, he got up earlier because he had to work on the electric fencing of our property, he was doing some maintenance and upgrading. he left me in bed to lie in. when he was gone, i smelt the stink coming from all the stubs in the ashtray.
for a moment i was annoyed. but then i remembered, that if heaven forbid something were to happen to him, and i were to be lying alone in the bed, crying the heartbroken primal sobs that tear painfully from the core of my being, it is the smells that i would miss the most. i know this from experience. you don't miss the title, or the posistion, or the car, or the salary (ok, maybe you do miss the car and the salary), but while you sob your heart out, you know that you would give anything, everything, just to smell the smoke again. just to smell the scent of him again. i would put up with all the smoke, just to have him here again.
so, while i would be very happy if he were to give up smoking, i snuggled down under the duvet, and smiled while i snoozed contentedly, because i knew that that stink of the ashtray was a reminder that he was still very much around, and that is all i need.
i am writing this from the hospital, where the man is in for a few tests. he is back in the ward, and awake, and feeling fine. we are waiting to hear from the doctor. and he cannot stop moaning, because he cannot go out for a smoke. he is stuck in bed because of the drip.
edited to add: the man wasn't in hospital as such, he was just in for a few hours for tests. he is back at work, and will see the doctor next week.
edited to add: the doctor says he has ulcerative colitis, an inflammation of the intestine. we are thankful to GOD that it is a treatable condition, and not something more serious.
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
i found a great tutorial on jessica spraugue's website. it is about how to make the grungy frame i used, and includes the free frame/mask. you can find it here.
the man has been cranky, and difficult to live with lately. does your man get like this too? i decided to make this softened photo of him. moody and scratchy around the edges. 'cause that's a good description of him at the moment...
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbook shop, benoni, south africa
photoshop tutorials:
photoshop elements tutorial - how to create a softened photo photoshop elements tutorial - how to download a frame and use it on your photo
scrapbooking tutorials:
scrapbooking tutorial - how to ink/distress the edges of your paper
scrapbooking tutorial - how to make a shakerbox
other tutorials:
tutorial - edit your photos before you print them, without photoshop
tutorial - download fonts for your computer
tutorial - make a font for your computer from your own handwriting
tutorial - how to cut 3 cards out of one sheet of cardstock
what i used for the banner:
paper, frame, staples, brads and stitches from the 'something springy' collection by anna aspnes at shutterfly.
flower from shabby princess, promise collection.
grunge mask from j sprague, grunge frame 1.
i am soooo thrilled! i got an email this morning to tell me this blog has been chosen to be featured on typepad's homepage as a 'featured blog'! this is such an amazing honor! i. am. so. excited!
edited to add: apparently the date for the feature is 24 july.
i also got one of my photoshop tutorials featured on www.photoshop-pack.com. you can see it here. this is a website where i have also found many useful photoshop tutorials myself.
the man cannot understand why i put so much time and effort into something that costs me (a little) money, and brings in none. and in all honesty, he does have a point. this blog gets way more hits per day than i get customers in my shop. and, although that brings me no monetary reward, it does bring lots of satisfaction.
the global economy is under huge strain, and south africa is reeling under constant food price increases, monthly fuel price rises, and an ever-increasing interest and inflation rate. my average customer has much less money to spend on luxuries, and i have been seeing that in my daily sales. every business person i talk to, tells me the same story. this is depressing. we have to work much harder for less results, and that can be so demoralizing. although i know that this is as a result of factors way beyond my control, it is still difficult.
then, when i open my blog, and check my stats, read my comments, get featured on another website, or get an email like the one above, i feel great! you see, in this little corner of the e-world, my little spot in the www, my virtual life, my hard work is paying off. i am seeing the results. i am getting some recognition. and it is better than money. ok, it does not pay the bills, but it does bolster my confidence, and counteract some of the negativity i may have been feeling without it.
you see, every human being needs to be acknowledged. whether you are in a profession that has lots of performance rewards, or your business gets lots of attention, or you are one of the the best in your field, or even just if your family and friends love and appreciate you, every one of us needs to be reminded that somehow, we matter a little, to somebody.
i know, in the huge ocean of the www, i am but a teeny droplet, and if i disappeared today, nobody would miss me (ok, hopefully rene, ineke, and some others would miss me). but for me, my blog is something i enjoy, something i need to do. as you may have read in the left column, blogging is a creative outlet for my emotional processes. i firstly do it for myself. and then, to my surprise, it seems that it is something i am good at. and that is why, although it doesn't bring in any money, it is one of the most rewarding things i do.
now, about those bills...
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
wedding photos are such fun to play with. somehow, they just lend themselves to being edited.
this is monique. she is the daughter of dear old friends of mine, desire and tito. she got married on 7 june. {the swirly frame is the decoframe in the renewal range from michelle coleman at shutterfly. all the other frames are from shabby princess.}
and, of course, here are some of my wedding photos. be kind, they are 22 years old...
check out the eighties style dress, and the blue eyeshadow, and ronnie's shiny suit...
ahh, young love...
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
here is more info on the south african scrapbook convention:
it is held on saturday 13 and sunday 14 september 2008 at the sandton convention centre, johannesburg. the cost is R2250,00. this includes everything.
|
EIGHT INTERNATIONAL CELEBRITY TEACHERS: |
|
if you want to go, you can book online, or pop into the shop for your booking form. if you do go, please mention that you are part of the SCRAPPIN TIMES group on your booking form, then they will put us all in one group together, and you will know lots of friends.
in the meantime, do visit all the celebrity teacher's websites and blogs, this will help you get in the spirit of things...
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa |
if you came here because you wanted to see what the 'window' layout is for the workshop on saturday afternoon, look here.
this tutorial will show you how to create a softer look for a photo. it is especially nice for a portrait, but can be used for any photo. i work in elements 6, but it will be similar in CS.
this little guy is eduard. he is my brother andre's son. he is almost 8 years old, and he is quite a serious little man, a deep thinker and philosopher.
open photoshop in editor mode, and open a portrait photo of your choice. i chose little eduard. do any cropping and basic edits you need to do.
now: first you need to create a duplicate layer to work on. there are a few ways to do this, i click on CTRL-J. you can call this layer 'soften' (by clicking on the name and typing the new one), so you know which one i'm referring to. make sure this layer is selected.
in the top menu, click 'FILTER' then 'BLUR' then 'GAUSSIAN BLUR'.
enter a value for the blur radius. i chose about 9, but you can experiment with what works here. when you click ok, you will see the photo becomes very blurry. this is fine, we will fix this. you can see how blurred mine is below.
those of you who saw my previous photoshop tutorial - did you see i figured out how to show you a screen shot? i really did find a tutorial on the internet about it... you can find information about everything on the www!
go to 'layers' on the layers palette. see there to the left of my arrow? did you also see that i figured out how to make arrows? so cool! man, i'm lovin' this... there where it says 'normal', click on that and a drop-down menu appears. click on 'screen'. with the 'soften' layer still selected, change the opacity by using the slider, to a level that makes you happy. i used about 80%. better? better!
now, find the little picture of a circle that has is dark and half light. a menu will appear.
click on 'brightness/contrast'. on the little screen that appears, experiment with the slider till you are happy. i made my 'brightness' about 12 and the 'contrast' about 26, but once again, see what works for you.
change the order of the layers by clicking your mouse over the little photo, and dragging it below the 'adjustment layer', so it is in the order shown. then, on the top menu, click on 'layer', 'group with previous layer'. this means that the edits you do are only linked to that layer, and not all layers.
when you are happy with the way your photo looks, you can flatten the layers by right-clicking on one of the layers and selecting 'flatten image' from the menu. at this stage i like to add a frame, but this is up to you.
the rough edge around the photo is a frame from the festival range from shabbyprincess, called vintage frame. and the frame around my gran's photo is from there too, called swirlyframe.
this is my gran, jaco sparrius. i'm hoping that when i'm 92, my granddaughter will use windows vista '58, and photoshop elements 29, to soften my photos that she took with her 98gigapixel camera that enhances all blemishes and scars...
of course, i'm also hoping that by then the makers of viagra will have a pill that keeps your skin firm for 24-48 hours, and that loreal will have a age re-perfect contour firming collagen and protein cream that has jane fonda still looking 60 at the age of 180, and the instant-slim-and-sexy-without-diet-or-excercise-pill has finally come on the market.
the frame is from scrapgirls, called old photo frames.
for both my and my gran's photos i chose a slightly higher blur radius, about 10 or so. i thought we needed a little more blurring to soften the effects of aging on our skins. either that, or more age-reperfect cream... at the 'brightness/contrast' step when editing my grandmother's photo, i actually decreased the brightness to a negative level, as it was way too bright. you need to experiment with your levels, as each photo is different.
you know, it is no wonder we have poor self-image. if this is what i can do on my home computer with a entrylevel photo editing software package, can you think what they do with the photos they take for magazine adverts. and we think those looks are the norm? they are edited to the max, creating perfection that is impossible to live up to!
please tell me if this tutorial worked for you, and if you got a glitch, please tell me, so i can fix it? thank you!
you can also read my other photoshop tutorial: how to download and use a decorative frame on your photos.
jacki janse van rensburg - SCRAPPIN TIMES scrapbooking shop, benoni, south africa
Recent Comments